There's something about Mary. No, there really is. Just Mary
I love her writing style and she is such a wise soul. She left an entry last night that really just left me contemplating. She said "What I know now, I can fit on a 3x5 card." In my twenties, I thought I knew it all. The older I get, I realize the less I REALLY DO know. But, as Mary said, what I do know, I hold close to my heart.
Some things I know today............
For the first time in my 32 years of life, I have noticed the beautiful colors of fall. The burnt orange, auburn, and gold treetops have taken my breath away, after going unnoticed for 32 years.The other day as I was driving down the road, crying my eyes out, I even stopped to snap a picture (albeit with my crappy camera phone) of one particularly beautiful tree.
My family and those who have always been loyal to me, I will always keep close to my heart and close by my side.
You can't know true joy unless you know true sadness.
Strength comes quietly from unknown places.
My father will always be my biggest supporter and caretaker, and the thought of not having him in my life is unfathomable.
This is the first time in four years that Brent has not bought me the biggest pumpkin he could find, carved it, put a candle in it, and watched me smile as he roasted the pumpkin seeds.
Maybe next year I will be able to appreciate that pumpkin more than ever.
9 comments:
Ash.. it's amazing how certain events (unfortunately not always good ones) can wake us up, and make us see what we have not seen in years. Not just the beauty around us, but what is inside our hearts and souls. I know you are going through some wicked things right now in your life.. a lot of soul searching.. and I just want you to know that I am sending love, good thoughts and prayers your way, sweetie. Hang in there. Keep your faith strong, and things will work out as they are supposed to.
I hope that next year brings you wonderful things. If that is that freshly carved pumpkin from Brent.. than so be it..
Hugs and love,
Jackie
PS I love me some Mary, too! She says so much in very few words. That's what I love about her, amongst other things.
i agree with you about Mary. She is special.
everything else will work out. hang in there.
tina
Awww...Ashley, just your writing has changed over the course of the past year or so that I've been reading you. Your soul has evolved into a beautiful, mature young woman, who realizes that life doesn't always deal a winning hand. Your reaction to the troubles you are facing will determine where you are heading. An easy road? No, but isn't anything worth having, worth fighting for? You are a remarkable woman. It makes me sad, that you are sad. Take care...
xoxo ~Myra
I think you are a pretty Wise Soul yourself ;'). I am hoping you & Brent have many more 'dates' in your future. ~Mary
All the pain makes the pleasure so much more wonderful. Life really is a gift!
Penny
Mary and you are both very special. I think its great that you can appreciate things today that before you didnt notice. Guess we are all growing up,huh?
love,lj
Strength comes quietly from unknown places..........AMEN SISTA!
Maybe it's not to late to find a pumpkin, carve it yourself, put the candle in, leave it for Brent with a note saying how much you really missed this part about him, leave the seeds in a baggie and make a date to roast them together!
Love,
Kimberleigh
I'm with Kimberleigh! If you can't get a pumpkin you can always buy pumkin seeds and see where the day takes you. :)
Gillie
I completely agree. I know less today than I "thought" I knew when I was 18.
Its funny how life humbles a person.
But its all good...
Hang in there my dear freind, things have a way of working out.....
It will.
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