Have you ever?
Loved someone so much but been so angry at them that you could not begin to express either of them? Wanted to help someone so much but felt helpless to do it? Felt overcome with grief and frustration? Woken up in the middle of the night in tears? Looked back and wondered if you should have done something differently or something more? Had an aching in your heart? Felt so close yet so far away to someone? I guess this is one of those times you "Let go and let God."
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Oh, honey.. I have been there, trust me. Only not with my sister.. with my son, Craig. I wish I could direct you to the entry I wrote about him and that same feeling that you describe. Only it was in my Waiting to Exhale journal, and I deleted that one.. :( Wish I hadn't..
I don't know what is between you and your sister that has you so torn up inside, but you are probably right. If you don't feel as though you are in control of the situation, then I would guess now would be the time to "let go and let God." You would be surprised at how quickly that will work for you.
My thoughts and prayers are with you Ash....
Hugs,
jackie
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So sorry we ended up playing phone tag. I wanted to talk to you. You expressed this so well. I have felt what you described from the bottom of my soul. Write to her a letter and DO NOT MAIL IT. Hold it. But say things in it you need to say. I'm praying to for your strength right now. Tell her how you feel because you are articulate and write so well. Use this right now to get you through. I care. Alot.
Nelishia
Yes, yes, yes, yes, a million times, yes...and with my own sister, no less. I have finally, let go and let God, and that has been the most difficult of all because I want to take the problem back and fix it...can I fix it better than God? No. Nelishia's suggestion of writing a letter is a great one. Let is spill out, say everything you want to say, and just hold it...read it every now and then, but never mail it. One day, you may want to share it with her, but you don't have to. The hardest part, for me, is accepting that I can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped...that's where He comes in, because He can, and He will, in His own time. Hang in there, kiddo. Take care...
xoxo ~Myra
yes I have felt that way before. It's so hard. I'm so sorry.
Yes I have felt that... it is soooo hard... those two emotions are like oil and vinger and so don't mix well. I'm sorry you are going through a very tough time right now. You can't change the past but I'm praying that the future is looking brighter.
Luv,
Jill
Hi I have been reading your journal silently for quite some time and love it! This specific entry I can relate to beyond words! If you go to my journal there is a entry from a couple months ago about my sister. Loving someone so much is so hard because it makes it very hard to Let go! I just went thru the same thing and had to finally admit I had done all I could and could no longer do anymore. I wish you all the best and your sister for whatever the situation is that you are in!! Come check my journal out sometime. Take care of yourself hun!
Robyn
Oh yes I have felt all those things! I will keep your sister and you in my prayers. Linda
I can say yes to all of this....more than once with more than one person. I am so sorry that you are in such turmoil & wish i had some answers...pray.....and believe and do not give up hope. Without hope we are all lost.
LOVE YOU,lisa jo
Keep the faith Ash! I am praying for ya!!
Gillie
you are so cool, i think everyone at one point in there life, has felt this way don't fell down. lv, srs
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